A failed attempt to write

Article By Sangeeta Reddy

Posted by: sangeeta reddy on December 20, 2013in Business, Experiences, Movies, Sports, Technology, Uncategorized, Videos, World Leave a comment

My Facebook friend Allipuram Rajashekar Reddy whom we all fondly call Raj approached me to contribute an article for gongadi.com. He in boxed me the message on fb at 1:30 am on 17^th December . I was wondering that Maybe he too is a nocturnal like me.  As always whenever I am online I remain logged onto face book parallelly checking updates, not just updates but the opinions and over reactions along with the happenings.

I was searching some information online for promoting the 3 new departments, recently added to my healthcare setup. And also was curious to know the lead singers name of a particular song I was humming the whole day.

 Suddenly I got this notification from raj, when I checked it there he was requesting me to contribute an article for the new portal which he is  going to launch on January 1^st called as gongadi.com. He also asked for my feedback on the choice of the domain name. I said it’s excellent and is in tune with our telangana dialect/slang. He told me that I was the first one to appreciate it, most of the people whom he approached for feedback did not even know the meaning of the word gongadi. We texted for few minutes and wished good night with an assurance from my end that I will contribute an article to his new portal.

After committing to him about the write up, I was wondering about what to write. He left the choice of language and topic to me. The options were multiple. I thought I can write about love, about life, about movies, about face book, about current affairs but I know that my strength lies in emotions, I can portray emotions better than facts, and I can add a dollop of drama even to facts to make them more effective and reactive. It’s nothing wrong for one to feel high and good about oneself. But at the same time exaggerated self esteem is dangerous.

I am finding it challenging when I am being subjected to this real structured form of writing. Expressing ideas vaguely and randomly without any continuity is so easy. But getting all of them together and building around certain theme and compiling them in a certain way to make sense is more difficult than what I imagined it to be.

The first shock I had to deal with was my inability in choosing a topic. What we feel about us is more important than what others feel about us. I wanted to write something which will please me first before pleasing anybody else. Write what I believe is my heart, write what I can rationalize and justify. There is harmony in the human mind only when we are in a constant dialogue with ourselves.

As every birth happens for a certain reason and a purpose, and we all are designed and given a role to play in the larger sphere, we can make sense of our existence and do justice to our creator only when we fulfil that purpose. We should make an attempt to discover our inner self, understand our core, try and stay focused on to it and full fill the purpose of our existence. We aren’t brought on to the earth for no reason. So my effort is to be alert, aware, conscious both in the state of awakening and sleep. Never give up or feel dejected.

 My understanding is that if I weren’t important, I wouldn’t have been here. I am wanted and required to play my role with total presence, and that is the only way I can become a part of this unbounded cosmos. Caring and giving will make me a very humble person from within. Consistent practice of gratitude in word and deed can make my perception more human and sensitive.

After so much of pondering, am still stuck with the thought of what to write and how to write.Without writing anything I filled a page, lol, if I start thinking and writing I will bore you all to death.

By the way did I share with you the name of the lead singer of that particular song I was searching for? The song is “ Sawar loon” the movie “ lootera“ the singer is “Monali Thakur , Music by Amit Trivedi, Lyrics by Amitabh Bhattacharya, picturised on Sonakshi sinha.

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About Sangeeta Reddy

My Theory of Karma

There is no escaping, there is no outlet, its all recycling.

Its all programmed and designed to run on its own. Any amount of smartness and manipulation will not yield any result.

The smartest too will get sucked in. Everyone has to pay. The earlier we realize, the better it is. Actually there is no place for the smartest, there is a place only for the sincearest and honest.

Only those who are honest with oneself , will see a suitable end.

Mistakes done unknowingly, will be pardoned, mistake repeated once will see less punishment, but repeated offence will reap its fruits.

Learners and fighters are the best and most rewarded

If you are chasing something at the cost of others, be prepared to face the wrath of that which you are neglecting. Doing/non doing, silence/words, love/hate, every action/emotion will see an equal reaction. Indulge in anything according to the reaction you are anticipating.

Over doing or over indulging is not going to do any good.

Extreme emotions like possessiveness, envy, hatred, vengeful, will harm oneself more than others.

Balanced mind and a  complete control on oneself is the first pre-requisite.

Get a  message when something fails repeatedly. Either it’s a test for your perseverance, or it’s an indication that its not at all for you.

Remember you are neither the creator nor the destroyer, but you are the manifestation of some body’s theory and imagination. You have a role to play in giving a shape to your creator’s ideas and imaginations. You are blessed with a  free will to beautify your creation your existence. There are some guidelines to help you trace the path , to help you walk on it.

   

Under indulgence is as bad as over indulgence. Struggle is more challenging than peace.

If you are being subjected to a lot of pain and hardship, remember that you are being washed off , of the sins accumulated. Assimilate that we are not the owner’s of anything, nothing belongs to us. We haven’t brought anything along , we will not take anything along with us.

And change is the most constant phenomenon, so teach yourself that nothing is permanent, neither relations nor wealth. Your confidence and your wisdom is your wealth. Build it , treasure it, reap from it, you can  carry forward the same to the next janam , and start from where you left . It dosent end in you grave. You can build on it.

Be happy , be positive, be cheerful, be balanced, be alert within

May there be happiness always, may you discover your real self.

FOR THE LOST LOVE

  The gift of this song is just for you

how desparate iam i wish you knew

yearning for ur love but u hav no clue

without you in it my heart cant beat 

magical moments with u i want to repeat 

take me into ur arms, dont make me wait

our togetherness wonders it can  create

away from u iam void n null 

make me feel complete n full 

before time takes its toll 

merge me into your soul

let me end in you as a part of you

i want to reach were i belong to 

नादान ये किसी और का खेल है

ये और कुछ नहीं

बस वक़्त का तमाशा है

न ज़िन्दगी इज़ाज़त लेके आती है

न जान दस्तक देके जाती है


तसल्लि के लिए रिष्ते जोड़ते है

बनते बिगड़ते रिश्तों में दिल को उलझाते है


नादान ये किसी और का खेल है

ज़्यादा अपनापन न जथा

दिल लगाने की न करना थू कथा

कोई  नहीं तेरा यहाँ

अकेला आया है

अकेला ही जायेगा


इसे चार पल की मस्ती समज  ले

ईमानदारी से अपना किरदार निभा ले

अधूरा काम कुछ भी न छोड़

मौत का इत्तला  यहाँ नहीं मिलता

कब खेल खत्म होगा पता भी न चलता


हिम्मत है थो कुछ ऐसा कर

वक़्त पे अपना चाप इस कदर छोड़

भूल न सके ज़माना तुझको

ऐसे साकार अपने जनम को तू कर

बस इसके आगे तेरा कुछ नहीं

हाँ , चाह के भी दुनिया मीठा न सकेगी

तेरी हिम्मत और हुनर  क  फ़साना


ये और कुछ नहीं

बस वक़्त का ही तमाशा है

न ज़िन्दगी इज़ाज़त लेके आती है

न जान दस्तक देके जाती है

बेवफा

बेवफा 


साथ चलते चलते अपने लिए अलग मखाम तुमने बनाया

मेरे मुरादों की कब्र पे अपना जहाँ तुमने बसाया

बेग़रज़ और बेदाग़ था मेरा मोहब्बत

पर अब वफ़ा की उम्मीद मुझसे भी न करना

नया रास्ता तराशा है मैंने अपने लिए

गर ठकराओगे कहीं थो

सलामी की उम्मीद भी न करना

फिर मिलेंगे

यारों की यारी
 दोस्तों की दिल्लगी
CANTEEN की मस्ती
थकने   के बाद  भी   चुस्ती

बहोत याद  आएंगे ये दिन
जब बिछड़ेंगे हम तुम

अनजान रास्तों में
मंज़िल की तलाश में
दुनिया को जीतने
कुछ ऐसा कर दिखाने
निकल पड़ना है हमे

हर ऊंचाई को छोटा करने
अपने लिए एक नया मकाम  बनाने
गुरु जन का सर ऊँचा करने
एक मिसाल बनके छाने
निकल पड़ना है हमे

 वादा मेरा है  दोस्तों  ये तुमसे
जब मिलेंगे हम तुम फिर किसी  मोड पे
तुमको तुम्हारी दोस्ती पे फक्र हो
तराशूंगा , ऐसा मैं , अपने आप को


यारों की यारी
 दोस्तों की दिल्लगी
CANTEEN की मस्ती
थकने   के बाद  भी   चुस्ती

बहोत याद  आएंगे ये दिन
जब बिछड़ेंगे हम तुम

FOR MY CHILDREN

LIKE A BIRD
I WANT YOU TO FLY HIGH
ITS COURAGEU U SHLD BUY
LOOKS LIKE A FAR CRY
AND A MERE SIGH
BUT WEARING THE WINGS OF WISDOM
U SHLD FLY HIGH...

LIKE A COCONUT TREE U SHLD CUT THE AIR
GROW UP AND CHALLENGE THE SKY TO DARE
BE AT BOTH THE ENDS
DEEPLY ROOTED INTO THE GROUND
 HEIGHTS YOU SHLD LEAD.....

BE BRIGHT LIKE SUNLIGHT
SPREADING WARMTH AND ENERGY EVRYWHERE
BECOME AS MIGHTY AND TIRELESS
GIVING LIFE AND HOPE WITHOUT BIAS..........

MAKE THE MOST OF YOUR LIFE
UP THE WAY FIGHTING ALL THE ODDS AND STRIFE.......

EVRYTHING YOU INTEND TO DO
YOU SHLD OUTGROW UR LIFE
AND LEAVE IMPRESSIONS WHICH WILL
MAKE THE WORLD A BETTER PLACE.......

अगर तुम साथ न होते

अगर तुम साथ न होते




अगर तुम साथ न होते

थो ज़िन्दगी इतनी हसीन न होती


खुद पर ऐतबार न होता

अपने मुक़द्दर पे फक्र न होता


मेरे लिए ये आलम न होता

खुशियों की पहचान न होती

घम में मिठास न होता

मंज़िल से मुलाक़ात न होती

थो मई , मई न होती

मुझसे मेरी रूबरू न होती


तुम्हे बनाकर खुदा ने

अपने हुनर का सबूत पेश किया


अगर तुम साथ न होते

थो मेरी  ज़िन्दगी इतनी हसीं न होती

एई तक़दीर लिखने वाले

एई तक़दीर लिखने वाले

मक़सूद क्या था जो 

तूने मुझे बनाया 

बेख़ता हूँ मैं यह

 किस बात की है सज़ा

 एई रहनूमा

 नाकाम रही हर तलब मेरी 

परदह कैसा यह नीयत पे तेरी

 रहम के कबील समझो अगर तो 

क़ुबूल कर लो दुआ ये मेरी

 किस्सह मेरा ख़त्म ही कर दो

 इस कॅफाज़ से रूह को मेरी आज़ाद कर दो 

बेख़ता = faultless मक़सूद= inteention

कफज = BODY 

तलब  = SEARCH 

जी ले ज़िंदगी आज की

जी ले ज़िंदगी आज की

जी ले ज़िंदगी आज की
कल की किसको खबर
हर पल एक तौफा है
इनसे इंसाफ़ तू कर

मिसाल बनके दुनिया पे छा जानाआदर से सर झुके ऐसे पेश आना

लोग तुझको सर पे अपने रखेमोल तेरा कोई ना चुका सके

फख्र करे तुझपे तेरे अपने सच्चे पराए को भी लागो तुम इतने ही अच्छे

तुमको सर उठाकर जीना हैहर ठोकर के बाद उठना है

शोहरत कदम चूमने को तरसेबड़े बुज़ुर्ग की दुआ तुमपे बरसे

घम दबा लो दिल में हसी सेदर्द को भी अपना ले खुशिसे

जीले ज़िंदगी आज कीकल की किसको खबरहर पल एक तौफा हैइनसे इंसाफ़ तू कर

JEE LE ZINDAGI AAJ KI
KAL KI KISKO KHABAR
HAR PAL EK TAUFA HAI
INSE INSAAF THU KAR
MISAAL BANKE DUNIYA PE CHA JANA
AADAR SE SAR JHUKE AISE PESH AANA
LOG TUJHKO SAR PE APNE RAKHE
MOL TERA KOI NA CHUKA SAKE
FAKHR KARE TUJPE TERE APNE SACHHE
PARAAYE KO BHI LAGO TUM ITHNE HI ACCHE
TUMKO SAR UTHAKAR JEENA HAI
HAR THOKAR KE BAAD UTHNA HAI
SHOHRATH KADAM CHUMNE KO TARSE
BADE BUZURG KI DUA TUMPE BARSE
GHAM DABA LO DIL MEIN HASISE
DARD KO BHI APNALE KUSHISE
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KAL KI KISKO KHABAR
HAR PAL EK TAUFA HAI
INSE INSAAF THU KAR