Vishwakarma pooja greetings to all the engineers technicians and their clients.

Today while doing pthe pooja of the vehicles, I noticed a white tape mask below the steering of my personal car.
When i removed the mask to see the hidden object under the mask, I found a small knife . And I found a similar knife in my hand bag too a few days ago.
When i linked the episodes and the son buying small knives at the store before he left for the college I could understand who did it .
Before leaving for college he told me that mumma you travel alone and you take the sister along with you to many places , so I am making some arrangements for your safety , use them in emergency. I never paid much attention to his advice about safety, I treat him like a kid.

But today after looking at the way the knife was hidden so meticulously masked , I realised how effected he is with the news of violence against women everywhere.

If every boy starts reacting sensitively to these issues it will put an end to the violence itself.
the perpetrators become guardians ....

Why I was dying to get a photo clicked near sun Temple in konark

We got married when we were students and the wedding was held 2 months before exams.
There was no honeymoon trip.
So the man promised to take me to see the konark sun temple as soon as we are done with the exams.

The exams happened and we enrolled into the next course, it was hectic coping up with the domestic needs and academic demands
It went on , previous year gave way to the next and and then to the next , we were done with our studies 3 years after getting married
Stressed( studies) and frustrated (no money) by the end of 3 years we got into serious work mode. And then the first child , the boy arrived .
Konark became a forgotten promise (like dashraths promise to kaikeyi) for the man But not for me.
I was sulking within for he not meeting his promise , but it was understandable too.
Once career takes the front seat, men forget everything
The mad race to reach the pinnacle, they think , if i don't work a day I am going to lose everything. Life becomes a race, a time comes in the married life of a couple when there is stress from parents from in laws from work , no one cooperates no one understands the other person. A subtle comptetion develops between husband and wife regarding career if both of them are competitive. There are insecurities , uncertainties, distractions. Fighting them out consumes maximum energy. Love romance takes back seat. Holidays and celebrations become formality , the couple are on war with each other due to their egos , uncompromising stubbornness. Both of them start having doubts about the relation, and if they did the right thing and if they are doing the right thing by continuing.

The beauty and the saviour of Indian marriages is children, even in the weakest moment it's children who keep the couple together, keep them tied. The worst of a husband or wife are the best of a father or mother. It's like anything and everything for children. It's growing up children who become reason of joy of happiness.
And the real joys of a family unit is children. The dust settles , storm withers , and a new direction emerges. It picks up takes strength from the bottom and becomes strong rich joyous. The most beautiful part of the journey starts ...

I Counsel the man everyday about the beauty of taking small breaks, to leave the world and patients on their own to find a way, to create some memories for the family.

And one such small break is the puri trip
On the drive back to puri from konark
I : if I died without clicking a picture with you in front of the sun temple, my ghost would have haunted you, and made your life miserable, and I will be reborn to marry you again to visit the sun temple

He : somehow I got an inkling about having you as my spouse even in the next janma, and the fear of the same is the only reason I agreed for the PURI trip...
I can take your ghost haunting me , but it's dreadful thinking of a repeat you again

And the son passes a comment from the back seat
Dad i am sure this will be moms next writeup #marriage #puri #suntemple#ghost

I declared
you people don't deserve me , so I am going to find a more loving family in the next janma
But the girl uses her veto power and chooses to be a part of my future family, and the rest of them follow her ...
ONCE AGAIN IT'S THE CHILD WHO IS KEEPING FAMILY TIED FOR ...
SUCH IS THE POWER OF CHILDREN IN INDIAN FAMILIES.

The kangan, bindi, mehendi, kajal , laal joda , sindoor and my karwa chauth varth
4 pm, lunch hour
He: why are you not eating?
I: fasting
He: is it ekadashi today (the 11th day of full moon and new moon)
I: no
He: then why fasting
I: karwa chauth
He: why this new drama, no one in our family does
I: I know, but it is the greed to have you with me for as much number of days as possible, and if this vrat is going to add another day, I will do it…

He: hope this kind of vrats will not shorten your life by a day

I: still not a bad deal, in India it’s easy to find a wife for you in late 40’s and difficult to find a husband for me in early 40’s...

He: silently shifted attention to his phone
Men know the art of drifting away when it doesn’t go in their favor

My empty stomach stimulated my thought process and I was wondering why am i seeking his companionship so much. I made a note of the reasons mentally
1) Do I need him because am used to him
2) Do I need him for the children he fathered
3) Is it for the security (financial, social) he brings to my life
4) do I need him because of the societal pressure(parents and immediate society will never accept that divorce is a non issue when happiness is at stake)
5) do I need him because I am too lazy to search for a replacement
6) do I need him because the chances of finding a replacement are bleak
7) OR IS JUST PURE LOVE
NAH! , I love him because he has provided me with all of the above, and I want him for longer time so that I shall continue to enjoy all of the above.
Though I made peace with the fact “THAT I CAME ALONE AND I WILL HAVE TO GO ALL ALONE “
I am not going to die for anyone nor am I anticipating that someone will give up his life for me.
But If my mom or mom in law or dilli waali babhi where to read this conversation they would yell at me “ aaj ke din tho shub shub bol”, this girl and her philosophy, she is already half mad, and she will drive us insane.
I CAN IMAGINE SOME FUNNY, COMIC REASONS FOR WHY A MAN FEELS THE NEED TO CONTINUE WITH THE SAME WIFE
HAPPY KARWA CHAUTH FRIENDS
And those of you who are single for whatever reason , let me reassure you, that you aren’t missing anything great, neither today or in future.
You can do a lot of beautiful things with your time, money, emotions and life.