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4/12/16
Tears rolled down my cheeks, when she was singing aaja sanam madur chandini mein hum tum.... I could peek into her soul. I replayed her interview again n again, to be with her , to feel her pain...
Daughter: mom why are you crying, you have told me so many times that we all have to leave one day. And your mom also left you, but please, you don't leave me, at least be alive till i celebrate my 50th birthday......
Her innocence made me smile
and then she says mom, ammamma (ammas amma, is ammamma maternal grandmother) and jaya amma look like sisters. (Though my daughter saw my mom only in photographs).
And the man echoed her observation. I started looking at amma like my own amma and started praying more intensely for her survival.
5/12/16
Daughter: mom today in the history class we were taught about vallabacharya and chaitanya... and their bhakti movement. chaitanya maharprabhu according to her text books made images of his own Krishna and worshipped him. In her understanding , he created his own Krishna .
Motivated with the new knowledge she decided to draw her own god , name him and wanted him to listen to her more than anyone else , as she is his creator, and her first wish would be to get jaya amma back to perfect health. I loved her innocence. I loved her desire to help me feel better. I loved her kindness and her smartness in interpreting the idea of creating her own god. But no god could prolong ammas life and she left us after we retired for the night .
I have one daughter; but jayamma has won many daughters like me who can feel for her as a woman.
6/12/16
She leaves for the school with grief after taking an update on jaya amma.
In the evening She comes back from school and her first question is how you are? , I : I am ok, she reached my mother, and may be they are talking about all of us. Maybe they are having good time, old age club you know . she smiled happily.
Her second question is who will be the new cm ?
I said o.panneeraselvan
She: what?
I: o. paneer+ cell +one
She : Ohhh o.pannerselvan
I said yee, you are right. She repeated it again and again ...
We moved on from jayamma into the next debate, next topic…
Frugal is human life, none of us are going to live forever, not even the legends
With all her wealth and power she couldn’t buy an extra minute for herself. The wealth and position I feel acted as a deterrent to having quality last few days of her life .maybe she wanted to talk to her people, convey a message.maybe she was not allowed to do so. We really don’t know how her last days were. Hope she breathed her last peacefully, contentedly
REST IN PEACE DEAR AMMA
