Monday, December 6, 2021

REST IN PEACE JAYA AMMA

 

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4/12/16
Tears rolled down my cheeks, when she was singing aaja sanam madur chandini mein hum tum.... I could peek into her soul. I replayed her interview again n again, to be with her , to feel her pain...
Daughter: mom why are you crying, you have told me so many times that we all have to leave one day. And your mom also left you, but please, you don't leave me, at least be alive till i celebrate my 50th birthday......
Her innocence made me smile
and then she says mom, ammamma (ammas amma, is ammamma maternal grandmother) and jaya amma look like sisters. (Though my daughter saw my mom only in photographs).
And the man echoed her observation. I started looking at amma like my own amma and started praying more intensely for her survival.
5/12/16
Daughter: mom today in the history class we were taught about vallabacharya and chaitanya... and their bhakti movement. chaitanya maharprabhu according to her text books made images of his own Krishna and worshipped him. In her understanding , he created his own Krishna .
Motivated with the new knowledge she decided to draw her own god , name him and wanted him to listen to her more than anyone else , as she is his creator, and her first wish would be to get jaya amma back to perfect health. I loved her innocence. I loved her desire to help me feel better. I loved her kindness and her smartness in interpreting the idea of creating her own god. But no god could prolong ammas life and she left us after we retired for the night .
I have one daughter; but jayamma has won many daughters like me who can feel for her as a woman.
6/12/16
She leaves for the school with grief after taking an update on jaya amma.
In the evening She comes back from school and her first question is how you are? , I : I am ok, she reached my mother, and may be they are talking about all of us. Maybe they are having good time, old age club you know . she smiled happily.
Her second question is who will be the new cm ?
I said o.panneeraselvan
She: what?
I: o. paneer+ cell +one
She : Ohhh o.pannerselvan
I said yee, you are right. She repeated it again and again ...
We moved on from jayamma into the next debate, next topic…
Frugal is human life, none of us are going to live forever, not even the legends
With all her wealth and power she couldn’t buy an extra minute for herself. The wealth and position I feel acted as a deterrent to having quality last few days of her life .maybe she wanted to talk to her people, convey a message.maybe she was not allowed to do so. We really don’t know how her last days were. Hope she breathed her last peacefully, contentedly
REST IN PEACE DEAR AMMA

Monday, November 8, 2021

choosing between the devil and the deep sea.

 choosing between the devil and the deep sea.

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Diwali brings the family together, even for a short duration.
As it always happens in my family, whenever my husband has free time, he will start fault-finding/ advising me on how to grow plants, put lights on, cook, or make other arrangements. It exasperates me, so I shoot back, saying I don't take suggestions from guests. Be here to help me every day; don't be my consultant; be my partner.
One leads to the other, and we have a small argument; hence, we avoid each other for a few hours.
While driving to the nearest pandal to offer puja,
The daughter jumps in with her favourite dialogue; please get divorced. It is better than avoiding each other. Don't worry about me. I will go to college next year, and for vacation, I will have the option to visit two homes. Maybe a kinder stepfather and stepmother will be indulgent and give me special attention.
So I am perfectly ok with it.
Think about how you will divide Saturn and Leo; Saturn should go with Mom and Leo with Dad.
But Dad, you should marry a lady who is friendly to dogs. If she cannot love our pets, I will never come home.
The son jumps in to give his 2 cents.
Mom, whoever you marry, I need to watch him for a couple of days.
I should know what he drinks, how he drinks, where, and how much he drinks. If he fails the test, you have to reject him. We can judge a person altogether at the bar table. One without bar table manners will be an outcast in my eyes. So get the right guy home. While dating him, be sure to come home before 11 pm. If you are not home on time, I will be stressed out in the hostel. Also, don't commit in a hurry; take your time!
The daughter jumped in once again. Bhaiyya, one moment she is fighting, the next moment she is force-feeding him pomegranate juice, buying him shoes and shirts, and again the next day, she fights with him. I cannot understand this lady and her mood swings.
Bhaiyya said it happens preesha women become cranky when they grow old!
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I said, but why should we divorce?
Yes, we argue, and sometimes we fight and avoid one another for a week; that is the maximum we can do without talking to each other.
But I have started calling them disagreements and debates, not fights. When we have to make investments, we try to knock sense into each other's heads for the best possible outcome.
I asked my son. You had a paperback in exams; did you give up MBBS?
I turned to my daughter and asked, you lost in swimming competitions in Mumbai? Did you give up swimming?
But you want us to get divorced because we have failed to conclude a specific topic? While trying to educate each other in various matters, we bang our heads as it is not easy to teach a grownup man or a woman. We are evolving as a couple and far richer in our understanding of this world, finances, and interpersonal relations. We help each other learn new things every day. We are like friends, like lovers, husband and wife. We are not formal; we are not putting up with each other for reasons other than love.
You should thank god for your good fortune that we are not a couple for worldly gains.
We don't live with each other out of compulsion. It would help if you watched couples who are not like us. Living in a house where love is only for public display would be painful. This saga of love, fights, disagreements, and agreements will continue forever.
We will divorce each other the day I don't feel pain in his hunger, helplessness, stress, and suffering.
If we start talking about divorce for every minor disagreement, then, believe me, you guys wouldn't have led this happy life.
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The husband, on the return journey, inquisitively asked the son
Rahula, do I have bar-table manners?
When I go out to start dating another lady after my divorce, her son may judge me.
TO which son replied, don't worry, Dad, You have zero bar manners, but I will teach you all the know-how to impress not just the evil witchy stepmom but her entire family.
The daughter replies, My gut feeling is stepmom will be a witch with straight poker hair, smoky eyes and red lipstick; the manipulative, conniving woman will not spare any trick in the book to separate dad from us. Dad, she will marry you for your wealth and then kill you to inherit it all. She will make you sign papers before poisoning your drink.
He said, now, tell me, should I stick to this cranky ageing lady with her menopausal mood swings, or should I go for an evil witchy stepmother. She replied, whatever suits you, Dad, make wise choices. Don't get trapped. This existing one, too, isn't easy either.
So it all boils down to choosing between the devil and the deep sea.
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We looked into each other's eyes to convey a billion emotions. That glance sums up love for me, piercing through every cell of the body, touching the soul.
That glance is a reason enough to put up with him till death does us apart!

Tuesday, November 2, 2021

Sameer Wankhede and Virat kohli- Hero or zero ?

 Sameer Wankhede and Virat kohli- Hero or zero ?

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What Sameer Wankhede did to Aryan Khan is right or wrong will be known after the NCB files the charge sheet. There may be a watertight case, or, as alleged, Mr Wankhede does it just to remain in the limelight.
BUT
What nawab Mallik is doing to Sameer Wankhede and his family is not correct.
Shahrukh Khan had a Hindu wedding; does it make him a Hindu?
What is surprising is a section of people are siding with Aryan khan because he is half Muslim.
But the same section of people does not support Sameer Wankhede, who is also half Muslim.
Why?
Where are the people who spearhead the minority rights campaign?
No organisation is voicing their concern for a Dalits son.
Rohit Vemula garnered a lot of support for his Dalit antecedents. There was a nationwide uproar, and rightly so.
All those who made allegations on NCB for targeting a Muslim superstars son are quiet when a Dalit father and Muslim mothers son is facing the heat.
Duality?
The liberal brigade(LB) dislikes one trying to fight the drug menace because he is perceived as a BJP man, and MVA is fighting the BJP.
Once upon a time, the LB hated SHIV SENA when it was with BJP.
My gut feeling is Sameer Wankhede refused to do vasooli from Bollywood for the MVA government, hence the collective hatred for him.
Money is the biggest dharma; every ideology and doctrine fades near it.
The one accused of doing drugs garners all the support because the accused's father is perceived to be against the BJP.
So it all boils down to hating BJP, nothing to do with ideology because shiv sena is a branch of the same ideology.
People(Liberal Brigade) who survived on the alms of congress lived a feudal lifestyle and received favours at the drop of a hat are working hard in tandem with the Gandhi family to bring back those good old days.
Congress lived in fear of RSS forever; the fears envisaged by Nehru are now seeing the light of the day.
It is a power tussle between 2 giant parties fighting for authority; All The vested interests take one of the sides for their agendas, favours and accomplishments.
It is a plain business for the BJP and Congress and their supporters, but for us, Janata, it is emotions.
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I was jaw dropped to see the same people from the Liberal brigade who trolled Anushka and Virat when they filmed a rich guy littering(On the high of Modi's swach Bharat Abhiyan) the street is now standing in Virat Kohli's support.
He is being liked now because of his anti crackers statement for Diwali celebrations.
Anushka and Virat were also made fun of when they met PM Modi and invited him to their wedding reception. They were labelled and branded bhaktas or right-wing. Sudden newfound love for Kohli emerged when he has started showing signs of distancing himself from Hindu festivals/sentiments.
The entire country is trolling Virat for his poor performance in cricket and fantastic acting skills in advertisements. The trolling has nothing to do with his crackers statement. If he won the match against Pakistan, maybe some Indian Hindus would have given up crackers.
I grew up watching cricket; every cricket fan is a fanatic, and every cricketer has faced trolls since time immemorial. Cricket itself is a religion; the player should worship cricket; otherwise, he is sent to gallows by fans irrespective of his faith.
I never saw a captain coming out and abusing fans. The credit goes only to Virat Kohli.
Dear Virat Kohli, you are liked, adored, admired and respected because of your cricketing skills, and nothing else matters. Be loyal to the religion of cricket to have followers. Rest the impact of your opinions on religion, nationality, brands etc., will be directly proportional to the level of your performance as a cricketer.
Don't get carried away by the love of LB; they will change their opinions once you will do a namaste to any godman. You will get demoted to a bhakta.
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The liberal brigade changes its discourse with every passing day. When they say they are speaking in support of a Dalit, minority or women's rights, It becomes clear to people listening to them that they are lying.
They are catering to their biases, personal vendettas and the favours received+anticipated. No one in the real world is worried about the other person; the sympathy wave and the favourable atmosphere can change overnight if the right goodies reach the liberal brigade on time.
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I like the right-wing (of all the religions) more than the pseudo-secular gang because the right is honest in wearing the heart on their sleeve.
No hidden agendas and motives. Their mission, vision are out in the open. They speak what they mean and do what they preach.
It is easy trusting and doing business with them than the chameleons changing colours. They foolishly and blindly fight for the rights of their creator.
They are not cunning but stupid.
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Closing with sameer wankhede
May be Growing up, he watched a lot of Bollywood, and the super cop characters left an impression on his mind, and he tried to enact them in real life. We can say that maybe it is one of the reasons he married a movie star. He is now playing the role of an Honest officer out on a mission to clean the system. We all draw our inspiration from various characters and personalities and undeniably many times from Bollywood too. Like Swadesh's, Mohan Bhargava made a handful of NRIs return to their motherland. So our Sameer Saab is the perceived Hero of the movie, drug lords supported by Nawab Mallik real mafia, and Aryan khan, a minor side character. Shahrukh Khan and Aryan khan has accepted the small role and pleasantly underplayed it. Nawab Saab is doing overaction; I hope the Hero (if he is the Hero) will make it a befitting climax.
The innocent Indian who grew up watching Bollywood and cricket will worship an evil destroying Hero and a triumphant captain.
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Friday, October 29, 2021

HAPPY 2019

 Turmeric rhizome powder.

My maternal grandparents used to harvest tons of turmeric in acres of land in the small village of parimandal in today’s Nirmal district of Telangana.

The earthy aroma of the rhizomes while digging, boiling or drying them under the sun is nostalgic, still fresh in my memory.

As a child, I used to play around the multiple heaps of turmeric rhizomes arranged in the open field surrounded by a fence in the forest (the wall was protection from wild boars, which were very common.)


As a child, I ate less chicken and more meat of the wild boars big hearths made out of hearthstones, the large round, black bottom, thick aluminium boiling containers, the noisy hush discussions among the female farm labourers about the dinner And post-dinner activities, the men looking at the sky making predictions about the temperature or unforeseen rainfall.

The weather prediction was as easy as staring into the sky in all four directions with the palm horizontally placed between the hairline and forehead.

Every man was a weatherman, and all of them had a consensus in the prediction. Usually, one among them was a leader, and whatever he said was final, as his predictions came true.


 So, his opinion was always sought before putting the product to dry.

Childhood leaves many impressions on our minds. Those impressions will bring themselves to life when we are put in similar situations when we grow up.

Yesterday, while extracting, washing, and drying the rhizomes, I felt as if I was enacting the role of my maternal grandparents. I gave instructions precisely the way they used to provide them to their farm labourers.

My grandmother was so meticulous that she never allowed a tiny grain of any product to go to waste. Yesterday, I did the same, handpicking every piece left out of the mud.

I was making turmeric at home 30 years after I last watched it being prepared. It felt just like yesterday.

The past three decades couldn’t come in between my grandparents and me. Memory is so beautiful, and the mind becomes a valuable tool when we use it to store only emotions, making us feel happy, grateful, thankful and loved.

By the end of 2018, let’s leave all the trash and hurt in our minds behind and store only the happy, positive stories so that we derive strength and energy from them. Let’s build it on from here to a happy, positive, cheerful life ahead.

Creating good memories and impressions for the children moving around in our surroundings is very important. Our responsibility is to Set good examples for them to recollect and enact when they grow old.


If we can positively impact their minds, it will generate the most healthy, sound, and loving individuals in the future.

Happy 2019, friends.

This piece of the chronicle was long due from my end.

 This piece of the chronicle was long due from my end.

An ode to our friendship and our maiden holiday vishika, Preeti, nita, simmi, Renuka and Aparna.

We are a group of 7 friends, call ourselves saptarishis, seven stars.

Two of them moved to Kolkata by the end of 2018 on a job transfer.

Aparna's husband took charge as SP baruipur.

Colonel Renuka and her husband, Colonel Sameer, were in army headquarters in Kolkata.

We all missed each other, as it has been four months since we parted ways.

Aparna invited us to tour the Sunderbans. Renuka, too, insisted we spend a night with her in Kolkata at Fort William, and then the seven of us go to the Sunderbans together.

We wanted to spend time together on Valentine's day, but as 14th February was midweek, we couldn't afford to take leave and go on a trip.

One among the 5 of us had a daughter appearing for class 10, so simmi had to stay back in Siliguri for her daughter.

The four of us packed our bags and three babies and set off on a voyage to Sunderbans via Kolkata.

We reached Kolkata around 8 p.m. on February 15th, col. Sameer (Renuka's husband) received us at the airport and drove us to his house.

The 5 of us set the house on fire. The guest rooms booked in Fort William were waiting for us, but we refused to leave home, so Sameer had to make the space comfortable for us.

We fed the babies, rocked them to sleep and then had a long chat till 3 am.

This was the next day of the Pulwama attack, so Renuka's leave was cancelled. She had to drop out of the vacation to Sunderbans. We decided to cancel the trip and stay back in Kolkata with Renuka, but Aparna has already sent a vehicle for us to visit her and then head to Sunderbans.

Unwillingly, we decided to leave, but on the condition that none of us would sleep that night. It was 3 a.m. Alam, the driver Aparna sent to pick us up from Renuka's place started calling to locate the address. Renuka guided him.

By the time Alam reached, it was 4 a.m. We had coffee, and Renuka packed sandwiches for us to have on the way.

Sameer and Renuka bid goodbye to us on the condition that we would spend the night with them on our return journey, too.

We promised and hit the road with droopy eyes.

I usually sit in either of the two front seats.

If I am not behind the wheel, I always prefer to ride shotgun irrespective of who the driver is.

For courtesy's sake, I ask the accompanying men and women their seat preference; if given a choice, I would never abandon the front seats.

On that day, Alam and I were in the front seat, too.

In the next row were nita, Preeti and her handsome son nirvan; in the third row was vishika with her little munchkins.

We started the journey towards baruipur; Alam was quiet all along, just the occasional small answers to our questions on traffic, RTA's and citizen discipline on the road.

I have this habit of interrogating drivers as they are the right people to explain geopolitical dynamics; with elections around the corner, I thought he would have some juicy stuff to share, but He kept his tongue tied, made no-lose comments, and criticised none.

Alam was a lean, muscular man in his late fifties; he had a thick dark mane and was wearing a khaki shirt, regular brown trousers and sports shoes. The uncoated, thick glasses in a black sheath frame could partially distract one from the early onset of wrinkles on his cheeks and forehead; they made him look older than his age. The muscular hands exposing the veins on the forearm and the erect posture indicated his hundreds of hours behind the wheel. During his career span of 3 decades, he drove around officers, criminals, memsahibs, arms and ammunition all around the state.

We reached Aparna's place in the next 2 hours. While on the road, I enjoyed the sandwiches grilled by Renuka and the team, but all along, the invisible Mukesh gave us company. Suhana Safar Aur yeh Mausam haseen, Humein darr hai hum Kho na jaaye kahin, Suhana Safar...

It was our first all-girls trip, bringing us closer than ever before. We took a small break at Aparna's place, fed the kids, and immediately started our journey towards Sunderbans. We have been missing Simmi and Renuka all along. Out of the seven, only five of us could make it to that beautiful boat ride in the tranquil waters of the Sundarbans.

Thirty minutes into the journey, we found fresh fruit stalls lining the roads in the small villages leading to the Sundarbans.

On enquiry, Alam told us that they were fresh local produce. We stopped to snack on the fruit. Alam took a particular interest in picking up the best fruits, cutting them into equal-sized pieces, and seasoning them with local spices. He handed us one portion each and hopped into the driver's seat.

I offered him a portion of guava from my share, and he took the piece and said thank you. I realised later that offering him fruit was the inception point of the Naughty ideas and thoughts in the minds of my girlfriends watching us from behind.

Both sides of the road were lined up with drumstick trees. When we asked why there were only drumstick trees here, he got into chatty mode.

If you want to engage a Bengali in conversation, talk to them about food, music, literature, and politics.

Everyone will click on one of the topics. Food and politics connected with Alam. He explained about local flora and fauna and answered every question patiently. He narrated eight recipes with a combination of fish, potatoes, and drumsticks. I started making notes mentally of every word he spoke. When we were chatting, for me, only the car, the road, Alam, and the music existed.

The girls started taunting in English; one said, "Is this love per sq. feet? "The other said, "Wish you a belated happy Valentine's Day." The third said this holiday would be the most memorable one only and only for one person. They went on and on only in English, assuming he would not understand.

I replied, " Stop burning girls; you will all rot in hell one day for not accepting fellow woman's happiness. I will not exchange this seat with any of you even for a million bucks. They set the discussion on fire, and we laughed like crazy, all in Alam's presence.

He dropped us at the pickup point and left immediately. We all exited the car; Aparna's army was ready to escort us to the private launch. We took snacks, water, nariyal pain etc., tugged in the kids and walked towards the banks of the delta of the Ganges. One by one, we got in and started settling down; that's when I noticed a smiling man in a t-shirt waving at us; I asked Aparna who is that man waving at us? She said, our driver Alam. He looked young and interested in that T-shirt. We waved back to him.

Aparna ensured that we got the best hospitality in our 8-hour launch ride. Served us breakfast and a multi-course lunch, we had vodka with us, which we mixed in coconut water and drank on the sly. Those 8 hours will remain frozen in my soul forever. The sunset, the water, the greenery at both the horizontal ends, the homecoming villagers predominantly tribal with a mobile phone in every hand, fellow tourists in various launches, the occasional spotting of animals, the excellent food and most importantly the company of people who mattered the most to me. We had so much fun sometimes chatting, sometimes just sitting silently; other times clicking pictures, taking turns in babysitting, eating, drinking, and watching the sunset….

We decided not to spend the night on the island as we had small kids who may need medical attention in case of an emergency, so we decided to turn back and head towards Kolkata. Aparna got the bookings cancelled.

Alam, back in his khaki shirt, was waiting for us on the banks of the delta. We disembarked the boat and headed towards the car. It was going to be a long journey back home. We were lagging in sleep by one night and totally exhausted by now, but the company of each other kept us going.

On the way back, one political party organized a big candlelight march in honour of Pulwama martyrs.

Another group came in from the opposite direction, leading to an altercation and then riots, right in front of our eyes. Aparna came to the rescue. She called the local police station and ensured we were removed from that spot as fast as possible.

While staying put on the road, I decided to get down and see what the fight was about and who the miscreants were? I carried my phone to record the clashes if it may help police arrest the culprits. Unwanted heroics, I must say.

As soon as I got down, Alam started shouting, don't go; it is not safe; why are you going…. I didn't care to listen …. when our loved ones are not with us, we become adventurous; if I had my daughter travelling with me, my first worry would have been to reach her to a safe location, here I was independent and free to explore the option of seeing a riot live.

I recorded the fight and returned to the car; Alam was angry now for leaving the vehicle without his permission, putting me at risk. The girls started again in English: " See how concerned he is about your wellbeing." You and only you surely mean something to him." He felt hurt after you disembarked the car without his permission."… went on making naughty comments. We all laughed like crazy, sitting amidst a riot, posing a danger to our lives.

We all planned to abandon the car, walk backwards to reach the nearest police station, and take rescue in it for the time being or maybe a night long, too. Vishika was readily positioned with her Baby Bjorn in place. Preeti held Nirvan tight, and we all were in a position to jump off the car and run at a moment's notice.

But Alam assured us that he would not allow any harm to come our way. He took his lathi, got down from the van, and started guarding the car against all four sides. His favourite catchphrase was dandha markey thanda koredega; he hurled this at everyone within a meter's distance from the vehicle.

Meanwhile, a large police battalion arrived; thanks to Aparna, she relayed the information from the spot to her husband.

After an hour of lathi-charge, tear gas, etc., the mob dispersed slowly, and our car was escorted out safely from the scene. Alam displayed pride in rescuing us, and I praised him to the sky for the same. The girls, as usual, were ranting from behind. We ensured that all our dialogue was only in English so that Alam would not get any clue of how we were twisting the storyline.

We dropped Aparna at baruipur and headed towards Kolkata to a resort at 9 pm. It was another 2-hour drive. Alam was on a different high, so he was a little rash and heroic on the road, which didn't make the kids seated in the last row very comfortable. He would slow down only when we requested him to. He drove us through one-way lanes, breaking traffic signals. On the way, he ordered someone to get a parcel of fresh fruits packed for us from a nearby village.

As we neared the end of the road trip with Alam, the girls started making fun of us even more. Like how he did everything to impress me, I even joined them in making fun of Alma's heroism behind the wheel.

At 11.30 pm, we reached the resort. We all got down from the car, and the housekeeping staff collected our bags and left. It was time to bid goodbye to Alam. Each one of us took turns thanking him.

I was the last one to speak to him.

I said thank you, alam; you will be remembered forever from here on.

He extended his hand out for a shake. Holding my hand, he said. Madam, I graduated with a degree in English political science and economics from a reputed college in Kolkata. I was the topper in English during that year. I understood every word of your discussion today; I know I am not fortunate enough to be the "date: to any one of you, but believe me, this ride will stay with me too till my death.

I said with an expression of pleasant surprise. Hey Alam, a graduate and a driver?

He said I had 12 siblings; I lost my father at a very young age, and it was my responsibility to run the family, so I picked up the first job, which came my way without waiting.

Maybe I would have become an English teacher at the most or perhaps a proofreader in some publication to get a distinction in English. That's all good English can do for us, so let us not take pride in speaking excellent English. It is just another language, a mode of communication, not even our own, but a borrowed one.

I draw more salary, perks, and robust connections than my contemporary, who started the job as a school teacher.

……… just because I am a driver doesn't mean I cannot speak English.

At that moment, I saw a Shahrukh Khan in him saying, "Do not underestimate the power of a common man."

We were dumbstruck and ashamed of our behaviour. Nevertheless, we overcame it momentarily and praised and thanked him again.

Back in the resort at the dinner, we lamented for not taking his ph. Number.

Our Sundarbans holiday will be the most memorable one forever; what say, girls?

All thanks to Alam, he made our maiden holiday the best holiday.

I had to record this for all of us and leave a copy here. Two decades down the lane, when we go on a holiday again, we will open this and read it then….